Monday, July 7, 2014

#LikeAGirl

I DIRECT like a girl, because I am one. This is me behind the camera during my 35mm thesis film shoot in 2012.





I saw this video ad campaign from Always on YouTube today. It was directed by documentary photographer and filmmaker Lauren Greenfield, who's previous projects, including "Girl Culture," focus on what it means to come of age as a women in our world.

In our daily lives, we are relentlessly bombarded with ads - on TV, on our phones, on the computer, and even now in movie theaters before the previews, which themselves are ads. In sifting through all the noise constantly thrown at us, it's refreshing to see an ad like this one, that takes on an issue for young girls and women and brings it into the spotlight. In a matter of days, the video has been viewed over 28 million times.

I wish there were ads like this one when I was growing up. At 12, I was the youngest girl in my grade. I had glasses and braces and didn't know what to do with my short haircut. While digitizing my home movies, I recognized a noticeable change in my presence on camera. I went from a care-free and outgoing kid to a young girl who was somewhat reserved and very quiet. A listener. As a young woman, I try to break free of that mold -- succeeding most of the time, but still there's that nagging pull to retreat, listen, and observe instead of speaking up. Who I am in my head is a much more outspoken and opinionated person. I hope that for the future generations of girls, their care-free and confident self is the one that carries through to adult hood with now qualms about what it means to be "like a girl."

I'm writing about this because I could relate to this issue growing up and feel so strongly that changes must happen in our culture for all girls and women. So I'm proud to say that I run like a girl, swim like a girl, I talk like a girl, I watch movies like a girl. I laugh and play and love like a girl. I photograph like a girl. I direct like a girl.





Tuesday, June 17, 2014

welcome, lindsey!

As we are moving through the year, things start to pile up, blog posts get ignored, and agendas forgotten. I've outlined some goals for Blackbird Film Co. this summer and the best way to accomplish them is to bring in the help - my littler sister, Lindsey. She is now officially part of the team and I'm so happy she will be here to keep me on task and sing any Disney quote on queue! Welcome to the BFC kiddo!

Lindsey - 2014

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

goodbye, camera

There are a lot of things about this year that I feel very fortunate for, notably the special times with my extended family this year. We are all pretty spread out across the states - Arizona, West Texas & Central Texas (because the distance between those two equals a few states), New Jersey, Georgia, Florida - and we got to see everyone that we haven't seen in ages. Although getting together with the whole family can be a little stressful, it's always worth it. There are a lot of changes happening in our family right now. We are moving on in life - my sister is going to college, Kyle and I are coming up on 3 years together, our grandparents and animals are getting older, and my parents are moving out of my childhood home.

Here's to saying goodbye to this year and hello to a new chapter in our family history...


Wednesday, November 27, 2013

let the memories begin



Welcome to Disney World, the most magical place on earth. I like using magical, instead of the "happiest place on earth," because once you save up enough money to go to Disney World, make your way through the maze of strollers with screaming toddlers, and past the long lines it's an incredible place. Not to mention I think it's more fun as an adult, than as a kid. It's easier to appreciate all the imagineering that went into the whole place. This was our first time to make it there during the holidays and Dinsey outdid himself, especially the hot chocolate stands - that was the most delicious drink and perfect timing with the surprise freezing weather in Florida. Here are a few of my favorites from the day I took my Nikon D800 to the Magic Kingdom. Let the memories begin!








Wednesday, June 26, 2013

outside gallery doors

After watching the livestream on the computer most of the day, we decided to head down to the Capitol and document the hundreds (thousands maybe?) of SB5 protesters lining the hallways of the rotunda. The bill would ban abortion after 20 weeks of pregnancy and put strict regulations on clinics causing many in the state to close. As midnight approached, everyone waited anxiously to hear or get any update on what was happening inside the chamber. Protesters yelled out “Kill the Bill” a few minutes before midnight outside the Senate Chamber at the Texas State Capitol. After a long and grueling night, I had to get these photos out there. Ultimately, the Republicans struck down Sen. Wendy Davis's (D) 13-hour filibuster. Cheers from the gallery and rotunda stalled the proceedings just long enough for the Republicans to call a vote (17-12 to pass SB5) at 12:02 am on June 26, 2013. However, the session ended at midnight and so, constitutionally, the abortion legislation was defeated. Victory for women's rights and the protesters! For more info, check out The Texas Tribune coverage.





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Photos by Lauren Gerson.

Sunday, June 16, 2013

me and dad

I love this photo of me and my dad. My grandma took it a random restaurant in Germany. I been working on archiving and digitizing a lot of these old photos and it's great to find moments like this one.   Here's to you dad, thanks for always being such a great dad!

photo by Phyllis Budzynski - 1990s

Monday, May 27, 2013

batman & friends

This weekend was pretty intense. All my family was in town, including my cousin from Arizona, to see  Paul McCartney's "Out There" concert, which was the best moment in life for everyone there. Disney was right, dreams really do come true when you wish upon a star. That and catching the announcement on the radio one day on your way to work, almost crashing your car because you realize that you found out in time to buy tickets the day they go on sale. And to top it all off you live down the street from the box office, so internet fees and waiting forever online only to timeout, refresh the page, and losing your place in line can go to hell. After years of skipping over Austin, Sir Paul finally decided to grace this great town with his presence and we got to go. Here is the culmination of the weekend at our parents best-friends-from-the-military son's wedding. Photos from Texas Photo Party.





Tuesday, May 14, 2013

polaroid tests

I am the dumping ground for old photo stuff at work and it makes me very happy. A while ago museum collections staff came to my space behind the patch bay at work and gave me a crate of photo stuff they no longer use and weren't sure what to do with. Until today I hadn't really gone through anything. Thanks to my trusty volunteer/assistant Lindsey, we discovered the Polaroid camera was still working and had some fun with the leftovers - expired Spectra film! Here are some of the best ones...








Wednesday, April 17, 2013

austin woman magazine

This month my photos of Lady Bird's office at the LBJ Presidential Library were published in Austin Woman Magazine! They didn't credit them, but they are mine. Still excited to see some of my work in print, even if it is just an exhibit. Check out the full article, including a great photo by White House photographer Frank Wolfe.

April 2013 Issue